Don't feel guilty about talking about something that upsets you so! How else can it get better?
Sweetie, do you have an anxiety disorder? If antidepressants have helped in the past, I'm wondering if there's an underlying thing. I have OCD and part of that is being preoccupied with horrible thoughts (of different kinds), a throat tightening, panic attacks, fear of illnesses, etc. I'm not trying to make it worse by saying there's something else wrong with you so don't take it that way!
I'm just wondering - if you're a G cup could the back pain be coming from that? I'm just throwing it out there as large busted women often have back problems from the heavy load they carry.
My baby is attacking the computer. Gotta go. Feel better!
You're a terrific gal and deserve the best! Take store in the good things in your life. It will help you get through times like this.
-------------------- Formerly HanSolo. IBS, OCD, Bipolar, PTSD times 3.