Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | Me venting some more. I need to get this all out ...long post

Ok, to try and let you guys know more about him. Picture this cute guy emailing you a million times a day, asking you how your morning is going. And then when I say I didn't sleep well, he'd actually ask me why and be concerned and want to know what was on my mind. I was in a bad mood one day and he was too. After I got back to my desk from visiting him, he wrote that he'll be in a good mood if I will as he hated seeing me in a "off" mood. He remembers what my plans are for the weekend and on Fridays wishes me great weather for the bbq, or to have fun with my cafe lunch with my gal pals. He also ends a lot of his emails with "ciao bella" but I hear that's just a gay expression that's used often.

He lets me know EVERY TIME he is stepping away from his desk and writes to me when he gets back from that or a lunch break. He NEVER forgets to wish me "an excellent night" and even sneaks out of meetings and conference calls to email me. He said me muted his speaker phone during a conference call so they wouldn't hear his typing as he was writing to me. He was waiting for a taxi in the lobby of our building and sent me a quickly typed email (with tons of spelling errors) asking me if I was free if I could please go down and see him there since we hadn't seen each other that day yet. I did (of course) and he was so happy to see me and everyone gave us looks like "what the hell is between those two?" We basically had a 10 min conversation that should have taken 30 mins but we just had so much to say to each other. He had been away for 2 days on business and i think he must have missed me. You don't ask a friend to meet you in the lobby when you're waiting for a taxi?? Come on...

What else? When I visit him in his office, he stands so close to me and his body language is all angled towards me. I 'feel' him more than I see him sometimes. He teaches yoga at my work and every time I open my eyes for 2 seconds during a holding pose he is always looking at me and then turns away super quickly when he realizes that my eyes are open. He was showing me the correct form to do a baby cobra and he laid down RIGHT beside me and put his hand on my lower back to help me with the correct angle (that's not a big deal as yoga teachers often do that--I know). I felt so much HEAT from that that I'd be amazed if I didn't blush.

We talked about hugs one day. I told him that I love hugs (shameless, I know) and he said he loves them too. The last time I saw him (before I revealed my crush) he looked like he was about to give me a goodbye hug but I always kinda run out of his office because I look at my watch and realize that I have been there for 30 mins or more. I should stay at my desk unless it's washroom or lunch break. My co-workers are SUPER nosy and often ask me where I've been if I leave for more than a quick pee in the washroom.

One more quick thing. He brought me a print out of this yoga out of town retreat that he was thinking of going to. He kept saying that he'd hate to go by himself.

Oh ya, when I told him that my BF and I were staying in one Sat. night to watch some movies, he wrote back that he was so jealous. But I guess it was jealous, as in he'd want to do that with his own BF.

Ok, do you guys get it yet??? I am not imagining that there's something VERY intense going on with us. Even his co-worker said that it's all super intense and that she doesn't know what he wants from me???

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