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I have been stressing out something major lately..

Tomorrow is my first day of school.. yikes.. plus I've just spent the past two weeks moving into my own new place.. starting a job and working tons.. plus preparing for tomorrow. I feel like i'm not gonna have time to even sit for five minutes once things really get going.

plus i've been soo soo lonely. I seriously have not spent any time with another human being outside of work and i've been getting really depressed about it. Nevermind the fact that the reason I stayed in massachusetts was to be with my boyfriend who is now my ex boyfriend which makes it even worse. so much more worse.

I miss my mom and dad and I miss having friends. I'm sure i'll love it here once I get adjusted and meet people.. but for now i'm wishing I never met my ex cause then I wouldn't be stuck here all alone. Being here makes me miss him which is really bad.

Worst of all.. I come home from work tonight and his away message is "cuddling..." ugh.. its like a stab in the heart. I know everyones gonna say just take him off of your buddy list but I can't do it. I've tried. but I can't. Which is obviously hurting me. It hurts so much to know that he's so fine.. its just harsh to come home and see that. I mean for all I know its with his cats or his godson but still. I seriously want to put up an away message that says "sleeping with someone that has a wayy bigger (you know what) than my ex boyfriend." ugh but thats being just as pathetic as he is and I won't. I'm trying to think of something that will get him where it hurts. haha any ideas ladies?!?

I think I've cried almost everyday at least three times. I'm sorry I just needed to complain.. I'm lonely and I'm scared about school starting.. everything is stressing me out.

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