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I blew it. Today, I got so depressed thinking that I haven't lost any weight this week that I ate 4 handfuls of Mand M's, and had two slices of meat pie for supper. I feel like giving up. NO...you CAN'T we will not let you!!! That is not what you REALLY want...is it? It feels like I'm putting so much energy into counting points and watching what I eat and I'm getting NOTHING in return. Yes, you are doing great keeping track and you are learning as you go...it WILL pay off...just give it time. It's so frustrating. I know my leader said that I'm building muscle and that it's going to take time, but still. Yes, I know you have heard this before....."you did not put the weight on over night, it's not gonna come off over night either" I see all these people at meetings around me losing weight and I'm not budging. It's so discouraging. I know I have no right to complain, Yes, you do.... you are having feelings and it is healthy to vent them. but this is SO HARD! I feel trapped. I feel trapped because every time I try to go out to the gym it requires a babysitter. I've tried going after John gets home and I put Quinlan to bed, but he's been working so late lately that I can't get there in time before the gym closes. That would be frustrating! I can go Sat and Sun, but that's just not enough. I'm doing weightlifting at home, but I know I need more cardio and I just can't get to it enough.Would you happen to have the funds and/or room for a stationary bike or treadmill for home? This sucky snowy weather isn't making it any easier. I can't push the stroller through the slush/snow so walking is out. I feel so trapped. Maybe I'm not allowed to lose weight. Maybe I'll be stuck like this until the kids get in school. NO.... Feeling fat and horrible. I understand how you feel... Sorry this is so negative. If you made it to the end, thanks for listening to my little tirade. Any time... Hope your having a better day.... really think about the bike or treadmill ....

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