Reged: 08/09/04
Posts: 2996
Loc: South East Michigan
Hello I am feeling realy depressed right now. I know it is silly but I feel like my life is over. I have just started on this road and can't get my head to calm down about it. I went back on the pill after a year of trying to get pregnant. I feel like I let my husband down. He says I am being silly and he just wants me to get better but I feel like better may never happen. I know that my life will never be the same and I have never handled change well. I have no patience's with my daughter. She is a good girl but is a three year old. I feel like the worst mother in the world. I have expencied depression when I was 19 but haven't had it in along time at least not this bad.I relized that by cooking big meals it made me feel like I was takeing care of my family. I still cook but is all quick stuff. Who wants to spend all day cooking then not be able to eat it. I am still doing the bland thing and miss my comfort foods big time. I have lost 20 pounds in the last month. Not that I didn't need to. i have always comforted my self with food. Boiled Chicken is not realy a comfort more like jail. We have cancled my husbands 30th B-day party I have to go see the GI doc for the fist time the day before. I am realy just messing everthing up. I had a cry jag yesterday and ended up with bad headache. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. I have also started shaking alot never did that before. I feel like this goin got take over the rest of my life. My family dosen't deserve this. Sorry this truned out so long. Hope everyone is doing well today. Thanks Heather7476
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