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woke up at 7:30 (normalish time) with lots of cramps and proceeded to the bathroom for 1/2 an hour at least... not sure exactly how long. i hate those morning attacks. they're the worst.

anyway, that knocked me out the rest of the day, although i had originally planned on going to school. and so of course when i finally was awake and feeling good enough to go, it was the end of the school day.

so i felt bad and guilty for missing again, which put me in a bad mood. BAD CYCLE!!! UGH!

i went on a drive and went grocery shopping.

i just feel horrible about myself. i feel out of control. i don't understand why i act the way i do. i want to go to school, but i don't. and my first counseling appointment got rescheduled for a week later (the 27th now), so it'll be even LONGER before i have help with this.

my poor boyfriend can't understand and i feel so bad unloading on him all the time.

AAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

frustrated and sad,

beth

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