Please email me at alesha_toucanflooring@hotmail.com or add me to msn. I am 24 years old. You and I feel identical by the way you described your feelings. I am alone in this too and hate having to put on an act , as you said when I'm around my friends. I want to die every other day at least! Anyway, I could use someone to talk to about this, and to be honest. I don't know if I believe everything I see on this website.