I am SO SORRY you're going through this *hugs* I also am not to keen on the med thing...I'm a natural gal...so I do a lot of soul searching, talking it out with my husband, and I research. I let out a whole bunch ofstuff tonight with my hubby...it was SO HARD...but I think he has a better understanding of where I'm coming from (always a good thing) I find that sometimes if I talk to him, like someone else suggested talking with someone who knows you well (I htink it was Michelle), I learn a great deal about what's going on inside me.
IBS bings you down...but it makes ya stronger too! There's a saying "G-d only gives us what we can handle". We must be special people if we're being given all this sorrow in life...G-d thinks we can handle a LOT! (I try and tell myself this when things get really bad).
I hope this helps...and please know you're NOT alone! I am also going through an emotional upset...still trying to figure out what's wrong with me...and I used to be very social before IBS took it's toll (I'm working on it)!
Many ((((hugs))) and well wishes....feel better soon......