Are the posts you have received encouraging? I hope they are, I am worried about you. I just want to send positive thoughts your way, always a prayer, please dont ever give up.
You are at a time in your life when you are soooo ready to get out and live. I feel for you, do you have Heather's Book? "IBS The First Year"? If not, go ahead and get it, it is a quick read. I keep it out on my desk, and refer to it often.
Take care, I am so sorry you are hurting, and so depressed. Do you take anti-depressants? If not, please try them, I take Prozac, it helps me. gayla