I think IBS changes most of us and the way we look at life. I know that I hate traveling and the thought of a trip or even driving out of our town to eat out causes me to feel panic. There are many people on the boards who dislike traveling. Sometimes the worry over the trip before hand is worse than the actual trip for me.
Are you a senior this year? That could be part of the problem regarding your lack of interest or change in attitude.
Right now you are taking positive steps to get control of your IBS and your weight loss. If the extra stress is making you feel worse then it isn't worth it to go on the trip. Sometimes you have to listen to your inner voice and do what is right for you. You are the only one that knows what is right.
Being 6th in your class is a wonderful achievment and you should be very proud of yourself. Try not to focus on how things would be different if you didn't have IBS. That falls into the same catagory as spending all your time focusing on the foods you can't eat. It doesn't serve any purpose except to make you feel negative and resentful and causes more stress for you.
It is frustrating to be around someone who cheats which makes that person appear to be doing well. Try to let it go and concentrate of your goals and what you want. Those goals may have changed now that you have IBS but that is ok. You sounds like a very talented and intelligent person. The people that cheat will eventually get their own.
High school is such a difficult time and it is so hard to be different. IBS is a health problem that most people are not willing to talk to others about. The funny part about high school though is that it is not the way life really is. Once you are out life is so different you never really look back.
I am very happy that you are feeling better physically. As far as your Mom and her worries, would it be possible for you to sit down and talk with her about how her being stressed makes you feel stressed which can make your IBS worse? I know she is just worried for you. A mother never wants to see her child in pain. Maybe if the two of you research IBS and work together as far as your diet, etc. she will feel more positive and supportive.
I wish you luck with everything. You have been through a lot this year so don't be so hard on yourself as far as the band and traveling.
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