I totally know where you're coming from, sweetie. I was just dianosed with Obsessive compulsive disorder this fall and I've had it almost all my life. I had to go on anti-depressants, too, and I had some wicked side effects for the first while too. It's hard dealing with something like "oh, you have this". It's one thing to live with it but it's totally another to face it. You are a very brave girl. You are probably feeling the effects of the meds, pre wedding jitters, and about another dozen things. Cut yourself some slack. You didn't ask to have these things. They suck. We deal with them the best we can. You are NOT a mess. You happen to have some MEDICAL conditions. Anxiety disorders are caused by a chemical imbalance in your brain. NOT your fault. IBS - God only know what causes it. Don't blame yourself. Cry if you think it will help. With any luck, the meds may kick in even sooner. If you don't mind telling, what meds are you on? I'm on Paxil. Another thing, I know what it's like to be away from your honey. My husband works in Cincinnati and we live in Canada! ???? We are nuts! I only see him weekends! We do what we have to do in life. Hang in there. In the meantime, remember that the job is just that - a job. IT is not you. Take care, and let us know how you're doing. Consider us your second "family".
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Formerly HanSolo. IBS, OCD, Bipolar, PTSD times 3.
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