Hi hear ya Dragonfly.....I am also a worrier and, at times, don't know how to stop, especially when there are unresolved issues. Here is the ironic thing about the IBS and my life. I have a 26 year old son.....when he was 2 years old, my husband committed suicide and left me with a broken down house and no money in the bank. I had JUST returned to work so I really needed this job while at the same time had all kinds of personal issues to handle on my own. I lived in Los Angeles at the time (2,000 miles away from my family). Yet, day by day, I plodded along...I think I was in overdrive and did what I had to do. When my son was 5, I sold everything and moved back to the midwest closer to my family to start over. Over those years I was under HIGH stress almost every day. Guess what NO IBS!!!! I worried, but I did not have time to even think about getting sick. I worked two jobs, kept up a house, raised a child, ate whatever I wanted, go, go go from 5:00 AM to 11:00PM and NO IBS!!
I now have a much less hectic life. My son is doing well in his final year of grad school and I married a wonderful, wonderful man 5 years ago. It really is stress-free. However, when everything had pretty much pulled together, IBS struck!!! This was three years ago. In January, 2008 I had a hysterectomy and IBS then went into full force. I planned on going back to a job I worked at and loved for 19 years, but ended up taking early retirement at 55 years old. No way could I go back to taking on my job responsibilities.
For me, it's like all those years of stress and worry caught up with me and at a time in my life when I can really think about relaxing a bit more, now I have this IBS crap to deal with.
Yes, I still do worry, but not to the extent that I did years ago.....I don't have those kinds of responsibilities. When I do get into worrying, I start having insomnia problems as well. I used to travel all the time, but now I just think about going someplace overnite and I start to worry...not ready for that at all.
I just hope and pray as time goes on I have better and better days. If I knew for sure lots of sex was the cure I'd go for it (even not being up for it), but since that probably is not the case I think I'll pass thank you!!!
I really have to wonder if there will ever be a medical cure for this...I think we all have to search within our own lives and bodies which gets so frustrating because it's just such a puzzling condition.
Sharon
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