hi i dont usually post often but find great comfort in reading through all the helpful advice given here, but today I've just had enough! I'm only 19 and i feel like my life has been taken away from me, I cry all the time inside and out, I've had IBS since I was 14 and i live like a recluse, i hardly go out, have no friends cause i cant go out to clubs with them and spend most of my day in the bathroom, i've managed to painstaikingly control my symptoms, I'm mainly C but sometimes D. But today I was supposed to go to the dentist, but I cant go any where unless I've been to the bathroom, because it ususally feels like i need to go all morning, and i have to eat my breakfast until i go. But today there was so much pressure, my dads girlfriend was waiting in the car for me, i still couldn't go, was getting more frustrated and upset with every minute! So she had to go with out me, and i wont be able to get another appointement till november and my tooth is killing me! Plus I'll probubly get fin ed for not going! So i screamed into my pillow beat my matress and flung my clothes at the wall in pure frustration, then burst into tears! It takes alot to make me cry, but today i just snapped! So now i have to wait for my Dad to get home and tell him why i didn't go and listen to another lecture on how i have to push my self more and its all to do with my head and how dissapointed he is! I just cant take it any more!
Thanks for letting me vent, any advice on C is greatly appreciated thanks byex
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