Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | WHY do I always shoot myself in the foot like this?

It seems that every time I post here acting like I know what I'm talking about and have my IBS under control, I get an attack!
So yesterday, I fell asleep around 8 and woke up at like 10.... My stomach was bothering me so I ate a little applesauce that I warmed up, thinking it might help. I also had a really bad headache and my period. So I was trying to sleep, and at about 1:30 am I started to feel really naseous and like I was going to throw up. i was getting hot and cold chills (does that ever happen to anyone?) so I was like, maybe i'm really sick, maybe I have the stomach flu! I had taken some clonopin so I was also kinda out of it... and out of fear, I took 2 Pepto Bismal and 2 Antacids!! I still went to the bathroom about 3 times, and thankfully did not throw up. I have a huge phobia of throwing up, and I just wanted to get through the night without that happening.
I wrote to my friend online and he calmed me down. I fell alseep around 3 or so, woke up at 9:30 and I feel pretty good today. But man, it's like, what was that? Was that all created by fear? I doubt applesauce could do all that to me, considering I eat it freqently. I am going to see an accupuncturist today to talk about it and get a treatment. I don't like taking all those drugs. I think they are just a mask for a much deeper problem... Namely anxiety. I also know that taking weird naps at strange hours of the day messes up my body and sometimes my digestion too... so who knows!
Just wanted to share that with ya'll... good not to get too caucky and think we have our bodies figured out.. we can control them, understand them to an extent, but there is still a lot of mystery associated with them no matter which way you swing it! Same goes for our minds and spirits... beautiful and confusing.
Oh one more thing... my friend was supporting me by having me send love to my body and remembering the gifts it provides me with. He had me send smiles to the parts that were hurting. Also, I was thinking about how the pain I have experienced has allowed me to be the healer that I am... a "wounded healer." if I had no pain in my body, I would probably be a total superficial party animal. But the struggles I have gone through have made me a much deeper woman, and a human who has experienced life on a pretty full spectrum. Just wanted to throw that out there!

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