I can sympathize with you. Join the club but I think you are taking too many things at once. You sound totally stressed and the anti anxiety meds arent working. Try to wean of the miralax unless you are extremely constipated. Your on the Benefiber as well? Too much. Also try peppermint caps or tea for the gas and bloating. Get something natural in there. Too many chemicals. Take a breath and have some friends over, have a good time. Relax. I hope things work out for you. I can understand. Good Luck.