It is about time I post about my trials and get some help.  I have been doing bad all winter; I usually do worse in winter but this year has been especially bad. One thing is that I switched work in November and do not read meters anymore, where I could get lots of exercise and fart as needed. Now I sit too much and can't fart at all. I try to poop after lunch when I really have to but I know I would be better working from home. Also I get much less sunshine and fresh air now. I like my job and it is low stress now that I know it. I think it is fun.
On the other hand I have been depressed and have had extreme anxiety and panic attacks. This is not really at work but around 'friends', family and congregation. I am getting so stressed that I cannot do my volunteer work anymore, then the guilt makes me feel worse. I am bloated much of the time and with extreme pain at times. I have been getting weekly gurgles or more often. Most of the time I poop without it being loose but have all the other effects of D. I think that must be the acacia. Although today I had actual D. I get so nauseated and icky all over after that. I hardly miss exercising most days.
So all this feeling worthless, being in pain and being able to do so little has made me depressed and more anxious and guilty. I guess I need to go to the doc and look into some drugs for depression and anxiety ASAP. I was thinking about waiting until mid April to see if I was doing better by then but it has gotten so bad in the last 2 days I think I will fall apart if it isn't lessened soon. My husband and cats help me a lot. And I appreciate being able to say how I have been feeling. I actually went almost all day yesterday and today without eating which is unheard of for me. Then I forgot I hadn't eaten and took vitamins and was so nauseous! Well that is about it. Thanks so much for listening!
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IBS-A for 20 years with terrible bloating and gas. On the diet since April 2004. Remember this from Heather's information pages:
"You absolutely must eat insoluble fiber foods, and as much as safely possible, but within the IBS dietary guidelines. Treat insoluble fiber foods with suitable caution, and you'll be able to enjoy a wide variety of them, in very healthy quantities, without problem." Please eat IF foods!
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