If I'm venting it's because I'm depressed and tired and run down and I have no support system in my life, because everyone has betrayed me and I don't trust anyone enough yet to really not feel people are out to "get me" (which is much beyond the scope of an IBS forum). Even online forums scare me.
I've been able to eat all the things I'm eating now (except the Gatorade) in the past few months. And I had no "bad" symptoms....including bananas. I'm already malnourished enough (at 5'11" and 125 lbs). And i don't want to cut out too much of the "few things" I eat because I have NOT decided to stop eating altogether (for now) and figure I need to get some nourishment from whatever I can.
I have read through the "stable" post as well. i'm not expecting no symptoms. But it just seems that three weeks is too much for me to handle with so much else going on in my life.
I'm probably just "venting" because I'm desperately seeking for some sign that it is normal to have these periods. That i'm not the only one. Life feels rather depressing and lonely most days and my IBS doesn't help me feel "good" about myself, because it makes me feel defective. (Even if IBS is not my really "fault", past events in my life have not as of yet been resolved enough to allow me to stop thinking I'm the "spawn of Satan"...which some days is not an exaggeration...i'm not able to believe in my "heart" that it isn't my fault.)
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Re: Wait a cotton picking minute here! Who promised us no IBS symptoms?
