Don't listen to what family says. I begged my brother and sister-in-law (an RN BTW) to take me to the hospital with my depression. They say "pull your head out of your *** and get a job." Well one day I just dialed 911 and went on my own. I won't go into detail, but I was homeless and depressed and eventually ended up on disability and am living in a rest home. It is one big "happy" family here. I take an antidepressant and am doing pretty well. Go see the Dr. and she/he will get you on the right track.