I am so upset! I wish my family was here for me while I am going through all of this. All they say is : You do not need meds. You're fine. Everything is fine. just smile harder..."
I want to be happy I REALLY do. But I can't be happy right now. I'm depressed. it is NOT my fault. I cannot control it! If I could I would!
I'm glad I am posting to you guys! I'm glad I told hubby. Glad I have therapy tomorrow. Glad I have a suicide hotline # in case I need it by the desk. Glad I have admitted I need help--scary though it is.
Unfortunately I am PMSing and I feel fuzzy and I don't think I should drive...otherwise I would go to PetSmart and say hello to the kitties. Maybe I'll take a nap and give Shana some hugs *she's sleeping...maybe I'll wake her?)
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