I just logged on and I got overwhelmed with Tinkerbelle posts! Hon, you need to try and chill out here! You need to stop and read and breath. Not all your questions can be taken care of in one day!
You need to get some other intersts besides this board. Honestly, you need to get a more balanced life...not all based around your problems.
Do you have friends? Maybe get a PT job? Go for walks or take up reading (fun novels) or knitting or doing crossword puzzles? Anything to help take your mind off of your problems all the time.
Your questions are overwhelming and so many here...Why not try reading through old posts and doing some searches to help get some answers to all your questions. Really, most of the answers to your questions can be found in Heathers books and this website links and posts.
Your stress is stessing me out! Please, please try to get into see a counselor or something. Or talk to a doctor about increasing your lexapro. I don't want to sound mean, but I think it would help you greatly to get some help outside of these boards. We all want you to find some peace and it may need to come from getting help in addition to these wonderful boards. Please, consider it. You sound so consumed with your body and mind. You need to get away from it