Thanks for the advice Maria! I'm in a tricky place because I am staying with my parents in L.A. now for I'm not sure how long, and all my things are up in Santa Cruz where I'm moving from to start grad school here in L.A... my therapist is up there and most of my friends and my guy is up there... and down here I have a few friends but no support system yet. I have my room there for the next month, so it's just so hard to know how long to be there or here, as I'm depressed and pooing a lot in both places. And I can't commit to any job or volunteering in either place because I don't know when or for how long I will be in either place. Some of my depression and anxiety is that I'm having so much trouble making decisions about my life, espically which city to live in (it's really hard because my guy is up there... but grad school is down here!)... I don't think i can start feeling better until I make some decisions and close some things up in my life and start working on openning other things. But that's a negative attitude, I know I can heal at any moment in reality, I'm just so negative and confused right now!