Thanks Cyndy... I am a hypochondriac for sure, I worry about having many diseases and am very tuned in with my body, and thus I think I can create symptoms of exasterbate ones that are only slightly there. I am not on disability rather I quit my job about a month ago and am staying with my parents. Everything is pretty complex right now because I am in the process of leaving the town I went to university in, where I've lived for 7 years! I have many friends there and a man I am falling in love with, but am supposed to start graduate school for a counseling psychology program in the fall! All of these issues started really surfacing after a breakup at the end of last year, and then kept getting worse and worse with stress from work and applying to grad schools and dating a new guy. I started seeing a therapist a few months ago, but obviously could not get too deep with her because I'm supposed to move to LA for grad school. So a week ago I came to stay with my parents and heal, but all of my things are still up where I went to school, along with this man I adore.... So I'm in limbo and waking everyday with tons of poo! I still don't know if I will go to school in the fall because I feel so unstable mentally and physcially. But I also know keeping busy really helps, but i feel too overwhelmed to do the things I used to love... Anyway it's very complex but I do need to start seeing a therapist where I wll be living for the next few years. I found one I think I like but haven't started seeing her yet!