thanks augie and shelby jean for your replies! im gonna try writing that down now! its just really hard~it always feels like my triggers are constantly changing! i guess indulging is just my bodys way of trying to hold on for as long as it can but it really is hurting. have either of you ever been so C that your arm and leg muscles hurt and ache? today is a better morning, like every morning, its a start-over. thanks alot again you guys and ill keep you posted!