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AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

I am sitting here in agony! There's probably no answer for this post I guess I just need to get it out.

Although I suffer IBS-C the C has not really been a problem since Heather's Diet. My problem now is this grossly swollen bowling ball like thing that some people refer to as a tummy!!!

I went to the toilet this morning for a perfectly normal BM and thought "oh great I'll feel good today not C at all".

When all of a sudden I think "what's that horrible backache and why does my tummy feel sore?" I look down at my tummy and it is swollen beyond belief. I couldn't believe it. How could I have a normal BM and yet look and feel like I haven't been for weeks? It is so painful, I feel as if I will blow up! I can't find anything in my wardrobe that I feel I could wear over this huge stomach that won't make me feel even more uncomfortable.

Trying to help, my husband suggests I must be stressed. So I thought about this. When I woke I felt happy and positive. I had a nice walk yesterday evening followed by 1 and a half hours at my yoga class from which I came home feeling great. I never ever eat any unsafe or trigger foods and haven't for the last 8-9 months. So (and excuse my language) what the hell is going on here???????????????

This seems to be happening to me nearly every day now and it is getting harder and harder to stay positive.

The only thing I am thinking I could link it to now is my hormones. I have PCOS and don't ovulate so have no periods and so my progesterone levels are low.

Currently I am using Puregon, a drug designed to stimulate my ovaries in order to ovulate so that I can possibly fall pregnant. This means my oestregen levels are rising. I'm thinking this could be making me worse. This in particular is not stressing me because I know it's what I have to do to have a baby and I'm willing to do anything for that.

But honestly today I just feel like curling up into a ball and not moving. I know the day ahead is going to be full of pain and I just can't bear the thought of yet another day like this. Oh how I wish I could have a normal life back. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time to before I suffered this horrible IBS and I would just spend so much time appreciating my life then. People without this horrible affliction honestly have no idea how lucky they are!

Anyway I know I just sound like I'm feeling sorry for myself and in all honesty I am. I feel I try so hard and it's like being punished or something for some horrible crime I have committed. I keep thinking, I'm a good person, I'm doing all the right things, why am I being made to suffer?

By now I have probably made you all feel down in the dumps. I'm sorry, this board really does help me to cope. It's just so hard sometimes. Surely at 27 years of age I should be in the prime of my life instead of feeling like it's a sentence and survival only.

Anyhow, I'm sorry if I have depressed everyone but I really needed to let off some steam.

Kerrie

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