Quote: I also have bipolar disorder so I can relate to what you're saying. I am so impulsive, and I have a hard time controlling my anger. Sometimes I can't believe the things I say---as soon as they come out of my mouth, I want to take them back.
I'm doing a "no-no." I'm cutting way back on my med (without my doctor's consent--I asked him, but he ignored my request!) because I want to prove to myself that they're helping me. I get like this about once a year. I know I'm playing with fire, but sometimes I can't figure out what is the medicine---and what is me. I just want a vacation from it! Do you ever get like this? The one I take makes me drowsy, and I'm tired of being tired all the time.
Yes yes yes - to all of it. I stopped taking my bedtime med because all it was supposed to do was make me sleep and it did but I slept for 12 hours at a shot and I was "tired" of missing out on life. I even cut the dose in 1/4 and it was still to much for me. Periodically I'll take a dose when I've stayed up too late to many days in a row. But, I discussed this with my doctor first. If I can't sleep or refuse to sleep I have the option but I didn't just stop without talking about it first.
Don't cut your meds. That is dangerous. A severe manic or depression could literally kill you and playing with your meds is a sure fire way to keep you out of stable. Do you still see a pshc for meds or your general doctor. Talk to him or a therapist about being tired.
I have three daily rules (1) go to bed at 10 pm; (2) exercise for 30 minutes; and (3) take medicine. If I get two out of three I consider it a good day.