I also have bipolar disorder so I can relate to what you're saying. I am so impulsive, and I have a hard time controlling my anger. Sometimes I can't believe the things I say---as soon as they come out of my mouth, I want to take them back.
I'm doing a "no-no." I'm cutting way back on my med (without my doctor's consent--I asked him, but he ignored my request!) because I want to prove to myself that they're helping me. I get like this about once a year. I know I'm playing with fire, but sometimes I can't figure out what is the medicine---and what is me. I just want a vacation from it! Do you ever get like this? The one I take makes me drowsy, and I'm tired of being tired all the time.