Hi Guys!
I just figured that I'd try out the living room, I'm feeling lonely and i'm in a bad mood! Its a stressful couple of months right now. I graduated from college last year, but stuck around town and moved in with my boyfriend while he finished his masters degree, which he is done with in two weeks. In the meantime I applied for my graduate education and I have gotten into Tufts for a masters in school psychology which is great, and now my boyfriend is looking for a job. Plus he is incredibly busy, granted we still live together, but I don't view that as an excuse for why it is ok that we don't go on dates, and go out for dinners etc. I know I know, He's so busy, interviewing, finishing up his grad school work and working at his job, but I am feeling totally lonely and neglected. our lease is up at the end of may, and my boyfriend vinnie decided he's gonna move home with his parents for the summer, and I figured I might as well move home too, to save money and eat free for a summer before moving to pricey boston. however, his home is near boston and mine is in virginia which means basically a whole summer apart. which totally sucks, especially since for the past six months we've done little more than go to maybe 5 movies together. I'm feeling totally hurt and neglected right now. I just want to spend time together but he's still too too busy. which i should understand.. a good girlfriend would totally understand. Its just so hard, not only are we gonna be apart all summer, we don't even know if we'll be able to live together in the fall, he says its fine and well have a commuter relationship etc, but I think what the hell.. we've lived together for a year.. I feel like moving apart would be like taking a step down in our relationship, and that kinda makes me feel even more neglected, like I'm not a priority. He's getting some great job offers and I am seriously wicked proud of him, I just really want us to still be able to continue our relationship.
Its just so hard, the past few weeks he's been calling all his friends from home and planning things to do and telling me how he'll get to hang out with them everyday now that all the work is done, and it makes me sad that I won't be with him and that we haven't even been able to do the things he's planning to do with other people because he's been insanely busy all spring. Its just so hard. and it sucks because i've never ever been a jealous girlfriend before.. but its sooo hard not to be. The first year and a half of our relationship I wasn't jealous at all. its just recently that its gotten this way. I thought the longer you were with someone the less jealous you were.
I'm sorry I needed to vent because we just had a little fight about all of this, I was hoping to be intimate with him and he turned me down like always for the past few weeks because he's too busy, but that inevitably makes me feel fat and ugly even if he says its really because he needs to study. I know it is, but I'm also pmsing which is making me feel even worse about it. So we had an arguement, which moved on to whats going to happen this summer ( 6 out of his 7 bestfriends are girls). I said i'm obviously gonna be upset if you're going out to dinner and movies with girls if we can't even do that together, which was left with him walking out the door saying that he's going to work to sell liquor to hot girls. I said are you gonna kiss me goodbye, and he was like no. I said why not, and he said I wonder. ahhhh. He's a huge jokster and tried to say the thing about the hot girls to lighten to mood, but it totally has the opposite effect for me.
we have an amazing relationship usually, and I think the stress of finding jobs, getting into grad school, graduating grad school, finding new apartments, etc is totally stressing us both out and putting a damper on our relationship and causing all of these little fights. Any tips on how to stop this?
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