Kree, speaking of being pathetic (and boys)...5 years I had just finished my first year of college, too. I was dating one guy and totally in love with his friend, who was something of an alocholic, but I didn't care. Let's just say I was indecisive and didn't know who I really liked. What did I do? Well, over the summer I broke up with my boyfriend. And in the fall, I started learning German, because that's what this other guy studied. Now that's pathetic! Not really though, since I love German and have long since gotten over both of those guys (sorta). I agree though that if you haven't give a relationship a real go, you always wonder what could have been! That's a lesson I didn't learn til the next year.