wow, sweets, you're putting a lot of pressure on yourself! but i totally get that. i also see myself as "the one who is always sick." that's probably because i am!
i don't know if this helps any, but at some point your hubby will need to lean on you. i'm not wishing illness or injury on him, don't get me wrong! i'm just saying that you sound like you believe you're doing all the taking... it's been my experience that situations like that always balance out in the end.
i didn't realize the anxiety meds had side effects like that--- that's like the antidepressants. i had no idea. i can understand not wanting to go through that again, then, if you know the side effects are not to your liking. there are a few meds i stay away from for those reasons!
hopefully you'll get the hypno soon and it will help. try to relax into the tapes as much as you can... try not to feel too guilty for taking the time to do it. it's easier if you just sink into them- your subconscious mind isn't being overprotected by the conscious! but even if you can't seem to let it all go while you listen to the tapes, the good news is that Michaels says they'll work anyway!