I soooo agree with you osbo54. When I was at my worst, it didn't matter what sensation I felt "down there" I got nervous. My gastroenterologist told me "it's all in your head". We all know that is not entirely true because of the benefits of controlling your diet. I thought that was a rude comment from him, but it made me think. I started to force myself to take on a "I cant control it, so it shouldn't bother me" attitude. I knew I did my best at everything, if the outcome was not optimal, oh well...I gave it my best shot.
At the the time, I was working on my bachelor degree. I did my best, if I got a B or a C...oh well.
For years I worried about what my family thought of me and my decisions. Not any more.
I can't make everyone happy all the time.
I can only do so much at work in an 8 hour day.
It is tough to do, but it helps.
I never did let the urgency go as long as I could...on purpose anyway. One time I was driving to work (42 mile trip, takes about an hour...great drive for someone with IBS:), I just got on the expressway and started felling not-2-good. By the time the cramps started, it was too late to turn around and nothing is open at 5 am...so I had to test the urgency. Some days I would carpool with my friend who lived half-way to work. When I got to his exit, I got off-hoping he was home. If he wasn't, I already decided that him being the owner of 2 large dogs would make it possible for me to have a BM in his secluded backyard, and he would thingk it was one of his dogs. I know that is kind of sick...but I had to go. I rang his door bell at 5:30. Unfortunately he was gone, but lucky for me (unlucky for her) his wife answered the door. She said, "he already left." I said, "I don't care, I need to use your bathroom NOW!" She knew all about my problems and let me in-thankfully.
Lardman
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