I'll bring the flashlight! Do you have extra batteries! I hear ya theres days when I would like to go to bed and just not have this stupid ibs and be normal so i can order pizza and eat ice cream with my daughter and go to super with my husband. Like you I have a wonderful dh he gives me my space and sometimes a kick in the but. Then other times he just leaves me alone. I tried taking zoloft again about a month agao and I was so sick up all night with a horibble stomach ach not ibs either and felt like crap for the next 2 days! Just know your not alone. I eat some days just so me and dh don't fight but I really don't want to. I am like you if I could just eat again I feel like my prolblems would be solved. I'm here if you need to talk! emmasmom(Sheila) ibs-c gas