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OK....I hate to even admit that I'm in a panic right now. But, I'm just about in tears. In fact, if I were at home instead of work right now, I'd just sit down and cry. Am thinking about going home anyway because of the way I feel. My 40th birthday is this weekend and I'm dreading having our families out to our house and all the attention focused on me. All I can think of right now is me as a little girl at one of my birthday paries. We had a neighbor man who was a total jerk. Mean man. My mom was friends with his wife and us kids were friends with his kids, but we hated him. Everyone thought it was sooo funny that he gave out extremely hard spankings to his kids on their birthday. So everyone convinced me (including my parents) that he was going to give ME one of his famous swats on my birthday. That whole evening when they were at our house for my birthday I avoided him. I stayed in my room playing with his daughter and son and dreading to hear my mom call me out to the living room to tell eveyrone goodbye and thank you. She called my name and had me come to the living room. I hurried and sat down on the couch as tight as I could while all the adults and kids laughed at me because I was terrified that he was going to give me a swat. I was scared to death and everyone who could protect me were laughing at me. I don't know why that scenerio keeps playing in my head right now, but it's really bothering me. I think I was maybe 8 years old at the time. I just want to cry!

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