Re: Back from Scotland, saying hi to all, ex advice needed...
10/27/07 09:15 PM
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THanks, hon. That is exactly what I needed to hear. And for future reference, very little "rubs" me the wrong way. I am very difficult to offend.
On one hand, I'm doing phenomenally well, thinking of this as a fresh start, etc.
On the other hand, he left in the worst possible circumstances, as you can imagine. All the lying, deception, and betrayal caused me the most pain I could ever imagine. And yet I still have feelings - after well over 15 years together, they don't go away all at once. I'm trying to let go a bit every day but the whole concept seems ridiculous and asinine.
I know he still loves me and that this new "person" is all that new love stuff, and I know that he will regret it. There is less than 1 per cent chance that they will make it, statistically. It just drives me crazy that this horrible "person" is going to be anywhere near my kids. She's already stolen my husband. If that makes any sense at all.
I know what I have to do. It just sucks, is all. Thank goodness for Karate. It right now is my joy and my anchor. I have finally found a physical activity that I actually like, and I'm on a weight loss plan and have already lost 5 pounds. I am taking care of myself the best way I know how while my heart heals.
Thanks so much for caring. XOXO, A.
-------------------- Formerly HanSolo. IBS, OCD, Bipolar, PTSD times 3.
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