I'm so sorry you are having such a rough time. {{{{hugs}}}}}. And I'm sorry that I've haven't been here for you lately. You have always been there for me. {{{{hugs}}}}}. You've got so much on your "plate" right now. I hope all goes well for you. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong!
Here's my favorite quote. It's helped me get through some difficult times. "When you come to the edge of all the light you know, and are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing one of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on, or you will be taught how to fly." ~Barbara J. Winter