Hi Michelle, I can totally understand your pain and weariness. I have to tell you that since I have been on the site (only since August), I marvel at the spirit that you have and the wonderful sense of life that comes across in your responses. You are an inspirational person and I thank you for your comments when I post concerns. My personal feeling on our pain and suffering is that one day it will all pass - I am a Christian person and this helps me to cope and handle my days of pain and also to accept things that I cannot do anymore. I also love children and both of my children are grown - I was an Educational Assistant and had to stop due to my health - it really hurt me to leave it - also I had a job for 12 years as our Church secretary and had ato leave due to health reasons - again tore me apart inside. I feel like I am burden to my husband on most days due to the fact that I no longer work outside the home and he is not really accepting of me not brining in some $. Life is not easy but please know that your bright smiling picture and great comments have meant alot to me! Thank you. P.S. I don't beleive that you have ato have children in order to spread love in the world!