**big hugs** I can't believe they made you go through all that with your endoscopy! I would have walked out, I think.. you're such a tough cookie! When I went for my colonoscopy, the same thing happened so I just had it without the sleepiness but I don't think I could do it in my throat. *shudder*
When I read the thing about the hernia, I was like, "Ouch!" and then was really surprised to hear that they said it was common and people had it without knowing it... part of it pulled up into your esophagus?? I think you'd feel that...
I can't believe they still can't figure out what is causing these pains, it's ridiculous! I have also heard that "depression hurts" but I associated it with aches and pains, maybe headaches, mild stomach aches or having D if you're anxious... Not one specific blinding pain. Do you think the steroids are causing it? Is that why you are going off of them? Now that you are decreasing, how is the swelling? I can't even begin to imagine how frustrating this must all be for you.. my thoughts are with you as always. I read in your other post to Ulrika about Will as well.. I think it's normal to feel unattached if you are going through so much.. I think there is only so much you can deal with at one time! I hope he can step up and try to just be there for you however you need him.. and that he finds some help with the meds.. and maybe counselling must be a good idea. I know it would be hard to watch someone you love suffer, maybe if he talked to someone about it and got some coping strategies?
Keep us posted, we all love you!
Steph
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IBS-D,pain.