Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | First hypno appt tomorrow with Mike, 1pm UK time...

...please, please, PLEASE send me positive tummy thoughts!! I can't tell you how much I need them - I've had a horrible couple of days IBS-wise, and I am absolutely TERRIFIED about tomorrow.

For more details see my post on the hypno board (link at the bottom of this post), but basically I had a HORRENDOUS attack last night, and despite eating barely anything & only safe foods my tum is still in a real mess, noisy, bubbly, uncomfortable and gassy, quite painful, and I am really not comfortable about feeling this way the night before something that (to me) is such a major, stressful, difficult event.

Normally my prep has been so good the day before I am quite calm and near-symptom free, I can't remember the last time I had a positive trip when the night before I felt like this. And I know that no matter what happens, how bad my tummy is, I can't just bail out of tomorrow - I HAVE to go, and that's just adding to my anxiety.

I really, truly, honestly am absolutely terrifed - not only do I have butterflies in my stomach already, but my legs are shaking and my arms feel weak.

Why do I feel so much worse than before my last couple of trips???!! So pathetic, hating myself right now... One big diff is that I'm driving, as I'm going alone, and I have had serious driving anxiety since an accident earlier this year - I'm even taking a hire car, as I'm so concerned that mine is still dodgy. But I even drove my dad's car a couple of days ago - I car I've always been comfortable driving, despite being massively powerful, large and fast, and I was scared the whole time. I loved some of it, but realised at moments thru the drive that the accident has really messed my head up - I'm confident and competent no more.

And now I have this long drive, to something that I can't bail out of, that is SO important, I'm scared of both my driving and the car and I'm in a completely unfamiliary car - I don't even know what it is til J picks it up in the morning.

Sorry to sound SO pathetic, this all feels so minor and stupid, but I'm SO scared. HELP!!!!!!!!!!! I just don't feel right, at all.

Link to fuller post with details on Hypno board

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