Reged: 08/09/04
Posts: 1329
Loc: UK - Leeds for uni, Merseyside for home!
I was expecting you to say those things...lol....I must know you too well by now...and I was hoping people would bring up the bad side of defering too...I agree to some extent on some things.....god this is so hard...I know its not a life or death situation and either way things will probably work out....but I duno....I just dont want to look back in the future with major regrets...i want to know Ive done the right thing! And I think you're right about the perfectionist thing...the thing with the exhibition is thatId always pictured that moment of my mum and dad and eveyrone coming and walking round and being all proud of my work etc...and it feels like im gona be robbed of that if I get extra time cos I wont get that. I also may end up graduating with people who I dont know! I duno, its so hard. I was always a perfectionist in school when it came to stuff like that....its the only reason i came out with straight A's and I suppose I dont want to feel like I ruined it all now when it counts most...and thats how i feel. I KNOW for a fact a better portfolio(which I am capable of doing) would get me a better job....design is a competative industry.....but then sometimes I think how long am I actually gona be able to hack it in an architects...I feel like Im gona end up teaching...Ive always said that. For the first time in my life I really dont know what to do....I am usually decisive with this sort of thing....my career plans were never a should i shouldnt I thing...I knew what I was gona do and what I had to do to get it so I did it. That was until I came to uni and let my hair down....I do feel bad that I havent worked the way I could have. I feel like ending it on such a bum note now will let my parents down but most of all myself. I want to feel that satisfied, proud feeling that I always thought I would and I dont think right now Im going to get that....they should have made me repeat my 2nd year really when I literally scraped through....I really wish I had!
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Thanks sinead...
Natalie 
