ever since i was a child, ive wanted to do something big, be a model, a singer, actress, ballet dancer lol something in the entertainment industry.. but after being diagnosed with mild cerebral palsy (which only affect my balance) i was told i'd never be a dancer,and i listened to that and let it go, then i found that i could sing and i loved it, but i never had enough self esteem to really get out there and do it in front of anyone but family and friends.. after the death of my father in 2001, i stopped singing, all throughout grade school and high school i was good in the school plays, i even memorized other kids lines and when they couldnt remember i'd help them out LOL, i went to an audition once (i was 18) and an actor who played on baywatch and commercials, had me read in a circle with other people auditioning and of course there was one snobby girl who looked down at everyone, she sucked at acting but she kept flirting with the guy from baywatch who was helping us out... everyone who did bad, he skipped over, when he got to me, i did horrible but he told me in front of everyone..'i see it in you, you have a twinkle in your eye when we talk about this stuff, i know you can do it' and ill never forget that.. it made me feel so good about myself (just for a lil while!) but it was an amazing experience..when a friend asked me today, 'what do you want to go back to college and study' i had no idea what to tell him cause all these things i'd forgotten about over time came flooding back, and i'd really love to lose my weight, build my self esteem and start over, but then i keep thinking what about my ibs lol..what if im on stage and i get hit with an attack.. im 25, i should be thinking of marriage and kids, but i dont have a boyfriend, no children, its just me and my mom and twin.. so i dont have anything to worry about if its something i really wanted to focus on, and i know these careers are close to impossible to get into..but its in my heart..do you think i should just focus on real things and careers or try and follow my dreams? 
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