I'm sorry to only post when I'm miserable but I've been really busy lately. I read a lot of posts but havne't said much myself. But, here I am miserable. My wife had a stomach thing this week - either a bug or food poisoning, and I've been in a state of panic all week, waiting for the other shoe to drop - or to see if it did. For those who haven't read my other posts - i've become terribly emetophobic in the last few years.
SO tonight has all the makings of a perfect panic attack night for me - recent possible virus exposure, total exhaustion, crazy stress recently - problems with our landlord and possible eviction, planning to change jobs in some way next year and tell my boss about it this week, and its Sunday night about to go back to work for a week! So while I may have a bug, I keep trying to tell myself that there are a lot of factors here that could have led to ibs and panic attack instead of a virus.
I have waves of panic wash over me about it (as the cramping gets worse, I've had cramps on and off all day today)- its so irrational, not only that, but if I didn't freak out and fight it so much it wouldn't be as miserable of an experience. But as it is, it brings up some bad childhood memories and who knows what else, but its not something I'm able to face with any semblence of grace. In fact I want to run out of my own skin...
Well, please send a hug my way and hope for the best. I've taken hyosciamine or whatever, and maybe it will help soon.
Dan
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I'm panicking again- please send good thoughts my way
