Aw sweetie, that sucks! I'm sorry! Its hard when you don't feel that you have the closure but sometimes there just isn't going to be any and you still have to move on. Try to accept that and don't dwell on the what-ifs, they don't matter now! Find yourself a good hobby to start working on after you put the kids to bed. Maybe you can join a class of some sorts, exercise or hobby or cooking or whatever, just to get you out once in a while! The worse thing you can do is sit home and mope. Have yourself a good cry, get mad, beat up your pillow and pretend its him if it makes you feel better! Get it out and try not to look back. He obviously wasn't the right guy but I'm sure you'll find the right one soon! Hugs!!!
-------------------- Taking it one day at a time.....