Michelle, No one expects you to up and feel better sweety. If they do then they're the one with the problem - not you. I'm so glad the boards are so helpful for you - I've also found sometimes that writing out all of my different medical dramas can be helpful - it somehow seems validated sometimes when you see it in words instead of just hearing it pour out of you in coversations in the doctors office that are gone as soon as you stop talking. It's good your appointment is early. I had a doc. appointment this morning too. I was the second appointment of the day and it was great that I didn't have to wait - I'll be hoping and praying you have the same luck tomorrow and also that you will feel comfort - cause I can't immagine how hard it all must be. Be strong Micnelle - we're all here for you. Min