I echo what Rachel said- There are no words. But you have every right to cry ,scream , rant and rave. No one can expect this pain to ever heal, maybe dull in time, but it will always be there. I am lucky to have Noah but I still grieve for the other 3 I have lost and I feel it fresh each time someone I know goes through the same painful thing. Just continue to know we are here for you and love you!!