I think if you want to know the sex, you should ask. They are your babies, after all. And so what if you cry? you have that right! And I don't think the doctor will be shocked by that. It's a very emotional thing and there is no need to suppress your emotions. I REALLY hope he has some medical answers for you, it seems like that's what you need most of all. I know you feel like life is not ok, and you're still angry---and rightly so. I just want you to know that in the midst of your sadness and anger, you have still managed to really help me out a lot with my conception/pregnancy questions, and I think that's wonderful. I'm sure it's hard for you to think about, and I really do appreciate all the advice you give.