Reged: 08/06/04
Posts: 4381
Loc: Within stray mortar fire of DC
I've actually been really nervous and upset thinking about the appointment. It is 160 miles away and I'm worried about the drive up, stressing about having to get a hotel room, and also nervous because my mom is coming with me and she's not exactly the most calming person on the planet.
I should be HAPPY I'm going to get all checked out, but I keep having these dreams that I'm crying in front of the doctor, reliving the pain over and over. It's all up in my head, ya know? I just can't get all the "what ifs" out of my mind. It's like I can't think of anything else, and it's been weeks.
I don't want to be stressed. I actually took the 1st appointment they had (even tho it was a month and a half away at the time) because I didn't want the endless waiting.
I hate it when I get this way. I wish I could RELAX!
I actuallly had a crying fit last night for something so stupid (BF put some of my clothes on the floor). I'm so stressed out about the doctor's visit!! It's so hard for me to go to a new doctor, all the uncertainity brings back horrible memories of the miriad of docs I've visited that DON'T CARE.
Tummy be damned. I'm having a beer. Gotta calm down!
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Stressed about the appointment!
