oh Michele! What you've been through is absolutely heart wrenching. I feel soo soo soo much for you.
I believe that who we REALLY are is comprised of our heart and our souls. Our bodies are just what contains and protects these precious facets of ourself. You didn't do anything wrong to cause this miscarriage. Your heart and soul only loved those babies more than you probably ever thought you could.
I know you are a strong person, but I know that you know that given all you've been through. HOwever, I also realize that despite the fact that you are a strong amazing woman and can get through this- all you can probably think about is "I don't give a crap how strong I am. I don't want to be strong, I want my babies!!!" And that is natural Michele. I know that if you could you'd give up all your strength to have them. That makes you the fabulous person you are.
Hang in there, and let it out. Again, I'm so sorry.