call it horemones, but i find myself crying for your pain...i'm so sorry you have to go through this...i don't know the story on your other pregnancies...but please dont blame yourself.
i can see how you would feel like it was YOU who couldn't keep them alive, as mothers, we tend to blame ourselves even if it's not our fault....
i honestly hurt for you...i'm so sorry...so sad...i really can't even imagine. then your best friend going through a loss...to top everything off...it's very caring of you to be concerned about your friend..and how she feels...but if you don't tell her...and she says something about the babies, that'll just cause even more devistation to the situation. you both have a loss, and are both allowed to grieve.
i can't imagine looking into the screen and hearing the dreaded words no mother wants to hear...and showing...etc...neither you nor will deserve it...don't just say he deserves better...its NOT YOUR FAULT. There is no one to blame, especially not you...you are far from needing the blame...focus on yourslef, remember your friend has family and friends who care about her. and probalby you too...people are usually open and warm to help family and loved ones.
again, i'm so sorry, and again my thoughts are with you completely...i really really feel for you. i don't even know you in person...but i know you are a beautiful person...when life sucks for me (i've been through alot my life....more than most 24 year olds) i say to myself "this too will pass" not so much for your loss...but the pain will dullen a little, and family and friends will be an amaazing support...and still we are here for you too
take care of yourself...we care about you Love Lyndsey