It's almost 10 a.m. and I'm still in my pajamas. I'm trying to get motivated to get in the shower and get dressed. Why is this such an effort every morning??? I guess because I have no where to go----and nothing to do once I do get dressed.
I think depression is creeping up on me. I have lost interest in everything, and I feel like crying all the time. The other night I just cried myself to sleep.
I called 3 friends this morning to see if they wanted to get together today. All of them have such busy lives. One is getting ready for her son's birthday party. Another is helping her husband get ready for a trip to Europe. The other gave me a long list of things she HAD to do.
I feel like screaming. Do I have to say, "I'm drowning" to get people to realize that when I call, I just need to be with another person?
The empty nest syndrome is now hitting me hard. Ok, I'm crying again, which is so unlike me. (I usually can't cry when taking the med.) When you have no kids at home, no family in town, a husband out of town, what in the heck is there for me to do? I feel like I have no purpose to my life.
Why can I not quit sobbing? I just wished my mother or sister was nearby. I would love nothing more than going over to their house and talk to them. They are halfway across the country.
Sorry to vent. Everyone seems to have an extremely busy life.....and I don't have a thing that I have to do today. I know that may seem like a luxury to many of you, but to me, that just reminds me how empty my life is.
How do I pass the time? My favorite part of the day is going to bed because I know that's the end of my day. I have gone to bed at 8:30 p.m. twice this week.
Is it time for bed yet? Maybe I should just take something that will make me drowsy and crawl back in the bed.
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