Does anyone else feel like this?
10/30/05 08:56 PM
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Stephie
Reged: 03/10/04
Posts: 2696
Loc: Vancouver, Canada
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Hi guys,
I figured if anyone might understand this, it would be all of you guys so here goes.. Does anyone else feel really like "gun shy" about making new friends and stuff? As some of you probably know, I posted back in February-March about a big "break up" I had with one of my best friends. The truth is, she is a horrible girl but I will admit that the whole thing still tears me up. When I think about it, I still get those nervous butterfly feelings. Since then, I have lost more friends that are also friends with her. Most importantly, the girl I went to England with. I would call her, leave messages, she never phoned back. She didn't even call me on my birthday. Am I better off without them? Probably. But it still bothers me.
Okay, so the point is, now I am at this new job and I have met all these new people and it is actually going really well.. everyone actually seems to get along really well! I have met these girls and they are nice and funny but I start to feel some.. anxiety, maybe?.. when I feel like they are getting too close. Like one of the girls acts a little clingy all shift, and it makes me feel kinda nervous. I always worry that they are going to invite me out and I won't be able to go, so maybe I should just pull away completely so I don't have to go through all that.
I don't want to feel like this, I used to be such a social person (well, mostly). I always had things to do, and I liked it. Now I like it when I don't have any plans, because then I feel like I don't have to stress. I have made a real effort and have been doing really well about getting out, making plans for every weekend and not letting my anxiety get the best of me... But with new people, it's different.. it's scarier.
Does anyone else feel like this? If so, how do you deal with them?
Thanks guys!
Cheers, --Steph
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