call me if you want to talk. for one I think its a good time to give up on the RE and stuff for NOW... I think you may be surprsed at some of the options available for adoption in this state- yes there are long wait lists for a baby, but it is possible and not as expensive as you seem to think. You can do it! just relax and let your marriage recover first- this should NOT be destroying you or your marriage, and actually if it does, then you will be better off without children anyway. And besides- does it have to be a baby- things ot think about in the long run- maybe do some volunteer work with some of the kids in the system before you decide. talk to a social worker in the area, etc. There are a ton of options out there. Sorry- but as the adoptive mom of an older child, Cassi has brought nothing but blessings into my life, though we did decide NOT to do it again, it was a close call this year. And our reasons for not doing it have nothing to do with our not wanting children, but with timing and location and some family things...
Amie
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